Month: May 2016
Every time I hear a celeb (especially the one’s I know) talk about their battle with mental illness I find it encouraging, because it shows me how despite how hard and exhausting their fight was, they still were able to achievetheir goals and dreams. It keeps me moving. Well, let me tell you about one celeb… themost well reknown author of the Harry Potter series and the new Harry Potter series coming out, J.K. Rowling!
As we all probably know, the author has often talked about how she had battled with depression and was her inspired her to create the insidious dementors, who suck the happiness and joy out of their victims. This is how she described her battle with depression:
“It’s that absence of feeling–and it’s even the absence of hope that you can feel better. And it’s so difficult to describe to someone who’s never been there because it’s not sadness. Sadness is–I know sadness–sadness is not a bad thing. You know? But it’s that cold absence of feeling–that really hollowed-out feeling. That’s what dementors are.”
Pretty deep huh? I loved how separated the common sadness from the despondent sadness which people know as chronic depression. People can tend use depression too lightly and interchangeably with the word “sadness”.
Ms. Rowling’s depression took place when she was in her 20s and especially after the divorce from her first husband. Then apart from that she was in constant poverty.
However, thanks to her real life “patronus charm”, her daughter, she got the courage to keep on fighting:
“The thing that made me go for help…was probably my daughter. She was something that earthed me, grounded me, and I thought, this isn’t right, this can’t be right, she cannot grow up with me in this state.”
And fast forward years later, she created a beloved children’s book and now is one of the richest women of the world!
What her story reminded me that what gets you through the tough times of depression is to remember the good in your life and the plans you have for your future. I mean, I feel like for myself I shouldn’t be working 2 jobs and going to school. That’s just crazy! I mean, I should be bed ridden or hospitalized or something. But ironically, my goals keeps me from being completely depressed, because I remember I have something I have worth fighting for (which is to earn a teacher’s credential). Recalling your blessings, your hopes, and dreams really does help to keep you grounded. Now doesn’t mean you won’t have your battles with depression, but you definitely won’t allow it from taking part of your life.
A second thing I noticed was how she went to go seek help for her illness. If she had not sought help not only would we have not got to enjoy reading Ms. Rowling’s books but she might have been in a worse shape! Let me tell you something from my own experience: self-recovery is the best gift you can give to yourself! Seriously! It’s awesome thing being able to know that I can finally take part in my life. I’m still working on get better, but just knowing that I can fight my illness is so empowering! Though when I look back on my life before the diagnosis and before the treatment, I learned I was just as strong then as I was now. And keeping that in mind, keeps me to stay strong and stay a fighter too.
Below is a link of information on J.K Rowling and her story impacted the Harry Potter community:
J.K. Rowling and Depression
People’s Own Take on Depression, Dementors and the Patronus Charm
Life with Depression…sucks. It sucks a$$! Literally it does! I feel like what ever life, what ever joy I feel is like—poof—gone! I mean it could be a bright and sunny day, poof! In comes depression! Ugh!!!! I mean why be depressed when there’s nothing to be depressed about?! But regardless of the reason why I got it, it’s the worst!
My whole life I always thought I felt I was inadequate, guilty, I felt lonely I would withdraw from social activities, lack of concentration, and displayed bouts pessimism. Though the older I got, the worse! I would be irritable, I would not be able to start my responsibilities… look when you look at the MHA’s infographic of depression, I basically went through most of the symptoms of depression. Though thanks to my medication, I don’t feel the symptoms of the disorders, especially the physical one *shudders*. I mean my muscles hurt and I had body aches that felt similar to aches of the flu! *shudders* I mean sometimes it would feel an imaginary cat would craw all over me, causing the aches!
And when it comes to the emotions…it feels as the the dementors are sucking the life and joy of from me!
Once “they” leave, it takes me a long time to recover. Sometimes it takes me a much longer time when going to work and/or school. Depression is just so much harder to fight. But nonetheless I keep fighting! Life also feels so much better not to the blame myself, but rather depression itself.
As mentioned earlier, MHA has an infographic that describes what living with chronic depression (man it hurts like a b–h!) looks & feels like and the graphics also tries to dispel the common myths of depression—especially chronic depression.