About 7 years ago, I went to a women’s clinic to go for a Pap Smear exam. Now ANY woman who has done this exam knows how UNCOMFORTABLE these are. But at the time I went, I felt something was off.
My OB-GYN Doctor was a guy and at the time, I didn’t care if they were a man or woman; I just needed to have this exam done as required by my then primary doctor (who was also a guy). Okay, so…the doctor asked me a few questions one of them being I have had sex before (I’ve heard that having sex makes it to have Pap smears. Well…it makes the vagina bigger, therefore allowing to make the Pap smear exam…tolerable), I said, “No.” Like him and other doctors before him at the time, it was hard to believe I haven’t had sex before. Why it was such a big deal? Still up till this day, I have no idea.
So minutes later, I’m undergoing the exam and at first it was uncomfortable (as it should), but after it was done, there was weird sensation I was feeling in my vagina. It felt pleasurable and uncomfortable at time. What WAS that sensation and why am I reacting that way? At the time, I’ve never had sex before and had no idea that vaginal sex wasn’t the ONLY way to have sex. Whenever I look back at the memory, I wondered…did he finger me? Because after that moment, every Pap smear I’ve gone to had NEVER felt like that. Even AFTER the procedure was done, THAT never happened.
Did you know there is a phobia called “Iatrophobia”? This type of phobia is when a person is afraid of doctors or afraid of going to see them. I am hoping though my fear won’t ever have get that extreme. Anyway from that time on, I never went back to see him and only preferred female doctors to examine me. I’m not going to let that doctor, stop me from pursing my physical health.